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[loveedition]

This is Ryoko Asakura. I can't answer right now, please leave a message. Thank you!

[ action ; mailbox ; phone ]

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[psionichax0r]

oh.

good.


why the change of heart?

[loveedition]

[ The change of heart... that's easy. ]

Did you see it?

[ What happened the other night. ]

[psionichax0r]

yeah. ii 2aw iit.

never thought ii'd 2ee 2omethiing liike that here.

[loveedition]

Me neither.

It's silly, but. I thought about what I would do if it were me up there. If I had to let you or Aisaka-san see me being tortured or killed by Sakura-san or anyone else. I can't put anyone through that, not now, not ever. It has to be the right time, and that time isn't right now.

She told me before everything got worse that I should think about the ones that need me here before I carelessly throw my life away. I wasn't thinking about it until now. I don't want to die, and I don't want anyone to grieve over me dying here.

[psionichax0r]

yeah.

ii feel the 2ame. before ii came here dyiing wouldn't have bothered me.

now everythiing2 diifferent.

[loveedition]

You should feel bothered by it in the first place! It's really scary! You'd have friends and family who miss you!

[psionichax0r]

the people ii care about back home are all dead anyway.

there'2 no one left two mii22.

[loveedition]

[ Oh.

...Oh. She... did he say that before? She's trying to remember if he did, but instead all she can think of is how bad she feels for bringing it up in the first place. ]

Sorry.

[psionichax0r]

dont worry about iit.

ii knew iit wa2 goiing two happen. turn2 out there'2 only 2o much you can do two delay the iineveiitable.

[loveedition]

[ God... this conversation. She's not sure if she wants to even continue going down that route. ]

We can still stay safe. We don't have to play and we don't have to get ourselves hurt or killed. Sollux, PLEASE stay safe.

[psionichax0r]

ii wiill. ii'm 2tayiing iin2iide and ii dont plan on leaviing anytiime 2oon.

hone2tly iit2 MK ii'm mo2t worriied about..

[loveedition]

[ MK?

....hm? Oh. Given everyone here... ]

Kaname-san? Is she doing okay? How is she?

[psionichax0r]

ii thiink. badly.

2he doe2n't feel good when other people are mii2erable. ii'm 2ure 2he'2 not handliing any of thii2 very well.



ii want two help her
but iif ii leave here ii don't know what wiill happen.

[loveedition]

Then you should stay as long as you can. Asakura-san won't be there for a while, so she'll need help cooking and keeping everyone safe.

[psionichax0r]

okay

diid you ju2t refer two your2elf iin the thiird per2on?

[loveedition]

[ Did she??? She checks the text again--

...Oh. ]

It's a habit of mine.

[psionichax0r]

ii've liiterally never heard you do that.

[loveedition]

it's not a frequent habit!!!

[psionichax0r]

riight becau2e the defiiniitiion of habiit ii2 2omethiing you do iinfrequently.